matamaan ka~

''Bawat tao may kapaguran, pagod umiyak, pagod magmahal & pagod masaktan..Kaya ikaw pahalagahan mo ang taong nagmamahal sayo dahil pag napagod un, kahit mahal ka niya talaga, iiwan ka din niya.. ''

tama! oo nga nmn.. dba? lahat tayo my limits eh.. ganyan din aq.. bat q pa bha mamahalin ang taong d man lang alam mag appreciate.. ano aq? tanga? d ah.. kea nga may word na WALK AWAY..  just walk away.. wag na mag hold on.. la din kwenta.. iiwan q tlga pag napapagod na aq umiyak, magmahal at masaktan!!

may isang babae.. i'll rant it na lang in tagalog para hnd nia alm qng ano ung sinasabi q..

ang galing nia tlga mag bigay ng advice.. lalo na pag dating sa LOVE..  peo hnd nia nmn kayang gawin katulad na iniadvice nia sakin.. gaga tlga.. sarap sapakin un.. bwisit! WAG KA MAG BIGAY NG ADVICE SAKIN KUNG HINDI MO DIN KAYANG GAWIN!! move on daw sabi nia sakin.. eh ang tagal q na kea naka move on.. eh xa, habol pa ng habol pa kay qya e.. eh gusto nga ni qya e na magkabalikan kami.. ayaw q nga lang.. kasi la aqng time para sa mga ganito..  ang importante sakin ngaun ay studies ko at time for myself.. un lang.. kabwisit tlga yan babae na un.. buti na lang hnd muh alam mag tagalog! leche ka! :P 

hello November.. please be GOOD.. thnx.. :)

thank God its November now.. please be nice to me.. :) i've been sick since last friday.. the pain came and i suffered.. woohooo.. feel like dying that time.. and i nearly did something stupid.. just because i can't stand the pain, i took a knife and i nearly slit my wrist.. okay! okay! the pain is killing me!! then i had this mental break down.. huhu.. but thank God i didn't do it.. here i am still alive.. getting better now.. i just dont understand.. bakit bah kailangan q pa mag suffer qng pwde naman qqnin aq ni LORD..  ang sakit kea.. the pain is killing me.. mas masakit pa to kesa sa heartbroken.. :(  


while i was sick, i watched some Filipino drama.. i watched FULL HOUSE.. ang cute ni Heart taz ang gwapo ni Richard.. you see.. i'm a big fan of him since i was 10.. yep.. i started to like Richard when i was primary 4.. haha.. ang gwapo nya kase taz ang galing nia pa.. nakuh.. inlove na inlove tlga aq sakanya.. haha.. nakakainis tlga ung role nia sa FULL HOUSE.. pakipot pa xa taz ayaw nia pang umamin na inlove na xa kay Jessie@heart.. haha.. wawa nmn c Jessie dun.. iyak ng iyak.. kahit ang sakit sakit na, mahal nia pa talaga c Justin.. haha.. kinikilig tlga aq.. i really love it when Justin is jealous.. haha.. i'm gonna watch it again for the 2nd time.. andami kse na skip q eh.. :)


anyway.. school again bukaz.. nakuh.. kainiz.. skul ng skul.. che! bwisit.. its okay.. malapit na din holiday dba.. 3 more weeks to go.. kea muh yan A.J.. :) :)

:)

i dont miss having a boyfriend..I miss having someone to talk to at night..I miss being able to text someone randomly without having a reason and just to let them know i'm bored and want to talk to them..I miss having someone to look good for..i miss having someone that cared about me enough to text me good morning and good night..i miss finding myself smiling at the most randomest times..i miss the dance dance your heart does when you're about to see the person..i miss kissing someone goodbye..i miss being missed..i dont miss having a boyfriend.. i miss having a companionship..most importantly i miss having you in my life.. :)

why? why? why me?

Do you know what it feels like to be me? to feel what i feel? NO.. you dont.. so why keep acting like you know when the truth is you dont.. dont act like you know me and please stop acting like you care! you are getting into my nerves.. 


why it has to be me? huh? why me? i always think about others before myself and what do i get? heartache and tears.. my heart is breaking into pieces and all i see is you guys the people that i put first before me is having a great time.. oh Fuck, why? 

My Favorito Filipino Quotes.. :)

1.Minsan sa buhay mo di mo alam kung kanino ka maniniwala. Sa mga kaibigan mo na nagsasabing ‘wag na’, sa isip mo na nag-uutos na ‘tama na’, o sa puso mo na bumubulong na… ‘basta mahal mo, sige kaya pa! 


2.The meaning of love is so unexplainable! Can’t be described similarly by everyone. But one thing is for sure.. Love begins with ‘friends lang kami’ and ends with ‘friends na lang kami!


3.sa pag-ibig, may gago at tanga. Gago ka kapag nagmahal ka nang di nya alam. Tanga ka kung di mo alam na may nagmamahal sa yo. Oo, alam kong gago ako.. pero sana..wag kang maging tanga!


4.Alam ko na mahal kita, pero ayaw kong aminin. Di naman sa kinahihiya kita, di rin dahil takot ako. Ang akin lang, di mo na dapat pang malaman pa kung di mo lang rin kayang suklian!


5.ok lang sa akin na di kita nakikita kasi nasa puso naman kita, kaya araw-araw kausap ko ang puso ko. Nagtatawanan kami, nagkukwentuhan, nagkukulitan. Hello!? Obvious ba? Nababaliw ako kapag wala ka!

hmm..

wtf is wrong with me today.. woke up at 3 a.m and i noticed that tears are rolling down my face.. flashback! grrrr.. flashback. i normally will text my ex Bf if  i woke up at 3 a.m because sometimes he also can't sleep.. so both of us will be texting until one of us fall asleep.. aww.. i miss those moments.. dude, can we just turn back time.. i fucking miss that boy.. then while i was looking at his picture,i fell asleep.. the i woke up at 8.30.. bahaha.. bitch ain't going to school today.. bahaha.. die.. die.. die..  i woke up with tears rolling down my face again.. ayayay.. did something bad happen to him? that was the first thing came popping up my mind.. lame.. but yeah.. see.. i still care for him.. TANGA! yan ang sinasabi ng barkada q.. ang layo layo nia eh hnd muh nga alm qng ano ang nangyayari jan taz you still love him.. nakuh! TANGA ka tlga A.J.. yan ang plage sinasabi nila sakin.. ahaha.. minsan nabwibwisit aq sakanila but aww they are sweet you know.. they are my fucking besties..
andami pa nmn boys d2 taz ang dami pa nakakagusto seu taz all you do is IGNORE them.. nakuh.. gaga.. mga gwapo pa mga yan.. bahaha.. yan pa ang sinabi nila sakin.. i can't force my heart to accept boys when my heart is closed.. nobody will understand my feelings for you.. Fuck distance! Y U SO FAR AWAY? lol..

if i was someones girlfriend right now i would

• always cook you a meal when you were hungry.. <--i'm pretty good at cooking..
• always bake you cookies and cakes when you want some..
• play video games with you..
• watch football, baseball, basketball games..
• watch anime and horror action movies..
• have fun with you..
• go shopping with you..
• party till the morning with you..
• pretty much whatever makes my boy happy.. :)

makalimot nga bha?

ako ung taong mdaling makalimut sa mga taong nakakabwisit sakin.. isang araw d nah kita ppancnin..tsk! kya pasyensyahan nah lng qng isa knah s mga tao nah kelangan qng klimutan.. ksalanan muh na un.. ask yourself qng bakit ganun aq? kxe i wont be like that qng hnd dahil sau..bat kxe ang epal muh.. ang bait bait qoh na nga seu taz ganyan? tang ina muh!  

i'm been updating my blog using tagalog.. sorry guys.. tinatamad na tlga aq mag aral.. haha.. since PMR is over, i'm being such a bitch.. i've been absent for days and days.. bahaha.. tamad! peo ang sipag q tlga mag jogging.. hehe.. kahit ang sakit sakit na tlga ang katawan q,i still continue it.. waahhh.. papayat na sana aq.. i'm sure galit na galit c Theresa (mathz teacher q) sakin.. ahahaha.. bwisit yan teacher na yan.. maths ng maths.. STFU.. taz na ang PMR.. and she is still teaching.. stupida tlga.. nobody wanna learn now.. The exam is over BITCH..  La din kxe magawa sa skul qng hnd nakaupo ka lng jan parang tanga.. mag day dreaming.. ayna.. thats what i hate.. day dreaming? maiisip q nanaman ung PAST q.. sauce! drama nanaman.. i guess may basketball na nagaun jan.. nakuh.. nakuh.. bwisit! namiss q tlga ung gabi gabi sneaking out just to watch basketball, watch my crush playing and cheering up for my favorite Barangay->sta.Lucia,san juan, san benito and POBLACION.. <3 ayee.. anjan kxe c crush.. hehe.. bwisit un.. hnd q na xa ma contact.. hnd q na alm qng ano ang nangyari sa CP nia..  papaxok na aq bukas or else ma suspend aq.. aishhh!! kainiz tlga oh.. i hate waking up so early for skul.. imagine waking up at 4.30 a.m.. wohoho.. ang aga.. eeh.. sa aringay mga 6 a.m lang aq magigising.. ayayay.. wla tlga aq sa mood mag aral ngaun.. malapit na kxe holiday eh.. 1 more month to go bebeh!! kakayanin q tlga.. tatapusin q lang tlga 2ng high school q then i'ma pack my bag and leave for college.. i wanna go to AUSTRALIA or SWITZERLAND.. 

drama nanaman A.J ;)

wow wow wee.. :) i am so tired and my whole body is aching.. huhu.. but i know in the end it's gonna be worth it.. i really wanna lose my extre weight.. so, i woke up so late today.. around 11.20.. it's because i slept at 3.30 a.m yesterday.. as soon as woke up, i went to kitchen and prepared lunch.. then we had our lunch at 1.30..
i really love cooking.. cooking makes me feel alive.. bahahaha.. wanna know why? because i'm a good cook.. yeah..i'm bragging out about it.. ;) when jogging again today with Rowena, Joy and Rowena's family.. had fun.. played at the playground.. haha.. it was so fun okay.. oh by the way.i chatted with Grace, my Bestie in Pinas.. my nalaman nanaman aq.. woohohoho.. totoo bha ung mga nakikita ni Grace.. hmm.. i wanna know the truth.. p/s pupunta ata c mummy sa pinas this december but for few days lang.. i can't go coz i might get a part time job so yeah that kinda fucked me up.. ;) but its okay.. i'm gonna earn some money bebeh! ~hee.. gusto q lang tlga malamn qng ano ung nangyayari jan.. ano na ung latest gosip.. haha.. anjan pa ba ung mga crush q? ung mga ganun.. bahaha.. pakialamera tlga aq.. did i mention na naizip q nanaman xa while i was cooking?  i did.. because i remembered na mummy will always scold me when i'm cooking its because while i'm cooking, my hand is also busy texting him.. haha.. he used to be the reason i get scolded from my mummy.. hehe.. naiinis tlga aq pag pinagalitan aq ng dahil lang skanya.. i miss those moments.. i really wanna forget you but how? there's always a thing that keeps me reminding you.. for example,i got the same number in my class and its our monthsary date.. then whenever i reply someone's message, i will remember that you really hate me for taking ages of time to reply your text..your favorite songs is being played wherever i go.. so tell me how to forget you? maybe i should end my life so i wont thinkabout you anymore.. ayna.. drama ka nanaman A.J.. tama na yan.. I've let go of him.. qng babalik xa sakin eh din sakin tlga xa.. pero qng tatagapin q pa xa.. LMFAO..bahaha..

yeabaahh i want..

tattoos.. <3
i really want one.. i know my mum wont allow me to have tattoos.. specially my granny.. if she knows this she'll make a big fuss about it..
wohoho.. who cares? i think i need to wait for 2 more year to get my tattoos.. now i'm 16 so 2 more years to go bebeh.. :P